Hello guys!!
Toulouse was pretty good. I got to know Lauren really well. It doesnt look like ill get to see her again. She leaves while im on my Euro Tour and shes in the south of france atm. :/ I neverrr get to say goodbye. Kristens family is visiting. i remember when we were talking about how far away it seemed. And shes with them at this moment. its soo wierd.
Ive tried EXCARGOT!! aka SNAIL!!! and i LIKE IT!!! its so surprising! but you cant even taste the snail. Its masked by garlic and such. I even ate TWO!! lol
and i finally went shopping! i got 3 shirts and 2 jeans :) i am happiee
Im doing very well. Actually :) My grades got even better!! and my french is there :) Host family is fine :) My host sisters friend from her exchange is here visiting. and my host brother is here too. its the last time ill see him! its only April and im already saying goodbye!!!!! :( im so bipolar about leaving. I wanna see my friends and family. and Buster my cat :) but other then that, i never wanna leave France. and i have great friends here too.
My euro tour is NEXT WEEKEND!!!!! im PUMPED!!!!!!!! 10 days in a bus around Europe with exchange students!! Legen..dary!! hahaha then when its over im staying at my friend Nicolas Nancels house. Cause my host family will still be in Australia visting my host brother.
The weekend after euro tour im going to SCOTLAND!! My host sister Susanne got accepted there and were going to go visit the campus. Im excited!
Then the week after I have a conference thing for the Outbounds 2009-2010. And that sunday im going to Disneyland Paris again with FiFi :) and Haylee and Kristen. :D
then the weekend after that im going to Parc Asterix with Rotary!!!!! IM SO BUSY!!!!
But i love it!! No school on Monday. Idk what im going to do... we'll see.
My family comes soon. well, okay, 2 weeks before i leave, but today im calling them for the packing list and what i want them to see and all that jazz. so its becoming more real.
I leave June 19th. Did i tell you that already??
I land in Houston Texas at 1:55pm June 19th :)
Thats about all i can think of.
I have pictures in Facebook. Add me! :)

Im sorry sorry sorry sorryyy i suck at this whole blog thing!!
(a demain= see you tomorrow) ((which i failed at. sorry for confusion!))
Anywho!!!
Birthday = amazing. I went out with friends for lunch and chilled at home :)
Valentines day was great! :) I got to talk to some friends i hadnt heard from in a long time.
Family is going really well :)
I just passed my 6 months mark!
i CANNOT belive its MARCH!! Its ABSOLUTELY INSANE. im running out of time!
if you ever want a year to fly, go on exchange.
I just got home from Austria skiing. My first time skiing was in the ALPES IN AUSTRIA and SWITZERLAND. (we skiied over for a day). i mean, who can say that? So cool. Ill facebook some pictures. I dont have them loaded yet.
Im going to Toulouse in 2 weeksish. Its alllll the students in France. Its a big deal i guess. TONS of people. Yay for getting more pins! My blazer looks a little sad. haha.
Thennn in April EURO TOURRRR!!!!! im so pumped for that! Europe in 10 days!
im sure more has happened, but i cant remember. its been too long. Sorry again.
Homesickness is there. Its just something you get used to. I guess.? lol.
Im excited and nervous and sad and happy and reluctant to go home in June. So bipolar. lol
I still dont know my return date. Im really anxious for that. Everyone else knows theres. and I dont. Im sliiighty impatient. But ill know eventually. I hope sooner rather then later.
I really have been busy. I promise.
Ill update after Toulouse probs. :) or sooner :)
Bisous!!! :)

almost

Tomorrow is my birthday! Ill have a huuuge update. SO MUCH to say.
a demain!

Well..
my heart's still beating.

Tis the season to attempt to be jolly.

So. its been awhile.
Im fine. French is fine. school is fine. family is fine.
my sister got a new car. im jeaaloouss. but were totally going to go on a road trip to iowa when i get home.
my family is visiting in june. i hope. i think? im pretty sure.
uhm.. going to sweden again on saturday til Jan 4th. i hope it will be fun.
No plans for new years.. ill be in sweden... :/
Christmas might be hard. idk. It doesnt feel like christmas. its strange.
thanksgiving was really fun. i had a blast. i went to nicolas house and made it with his mom and all that jazz. it was fun.
i went to the circus in paris on tuesday. i loovedd it. but i loooove circus' anyway. lol. and i was in the 2nd row, so it was wickeddd.
I had to say goodbye to John my guy australian friend. hes leaving the 4th and im going to be in sweden :/
And i had to say goodbye to my 5 australian friends from school. The ones that were here for 6 weeks. i cant believe its alreadybeen 6 weeks.
it kind of bugs me how the time is flying. i keep thinking i have all this time, when i dont.
its like it flies when you want it to crawl and it stands still when you want it to run. its irritating. but thats life i guess.
i got to be really good friends with the australians. so it sucks.
im excited to get my christmas package. :) my famm sent it to sweden so it will be waiting for me when i get there :) suuper excited. i love packages and letters. theyre my faaavieess!
So many people are leaving. john, the 5 australians. Sean got sent home. (dont get me started). Cassie left. and now Tom is getting sent home. ugh. i hate it! im so scared i will get sent home for something. ( i dont really think it would or will happen, but still. this is crazy) so im like walkin on eggshells when im with rotary. aah. i hate it.
this is the hardest time, so im told. and i believe them.
january is supposed to be mad awesome. so i cant wait. but idk.
Im trying to not compare my exchange to other students, but i cant help it. And when i do, im really discouraged. Im just not as advanced as the others. theres too much english at home. they speak to me in french now, so thats good, but they still speak english sometimes. im just kid of, losing faith in myself.
everyone says im brave for doing this. i think im just insane.
I refuse to leave from homesickness. Im going to do this year. but i want to see my family.
bbaahhh homesickness. ughh. i miss my friends A LOT!!! especially my GUY friends. i have like 1 maybe 2 guy friends here, and it bugs me. Guys are usually the majority of my friends. girls carry drama (no offense). So i DEFINATLY miss them. :/
okay well i have to go.
(ill do more later. ugh. i miss my real mom.)

blah blah blah..

Ehhh.
Last week was pretty okay. Wednesday our Ukranian, Oksana came. shes pretty nice i suppose.
Saturday we went (me susanne oksana and her friend) to Disneyland Paris. it was a lot of fun. The weather totally sucked though. but we managed. :)
Sunday i had tennis and just hung out at the house.
Monday i had an amazazing day. We (me susanne and Oksana) went to Paris :)
went to the Louvre (mona lisa) and other stuff, the arc thing (i always forget what its called), the famous boulevard with like Luoi Vitton or w.e. and Gucci and all that. I also saw the most classy Mcdonalds ever!! ahaha. they know how to make fastfood classy, i tell ya what. and we went to the business dist. for susannes friend coz she had to go back to school. and i found a store that had a few english books so i HAD to buy one!! and then of course, after i bought a book and had no more money, we found the FIRST english bookstore established ON THE CONTINENT! i was mad. but were sooo going back there. but it was for smart rich people, so i only found one book i would want to buy. and we went to a cafe and got hot chocolate and crepes. :) yumm.
it was an amazing day! and we found the ferris wheel and waited around there for the eifeel tower to light up. we had a nice view. it was funn.
Tuesday i went to Versailles. it was alright. not amazing but not too bad. i met the new australians. i like them. (but i like my old ones better lol)
Today.. i have tutoring with rotary. and i opted to not go to the dinner. I dont think i could stand more goose liver. ahah. seriously though!

Uhm. My appetite is.. gone. Im pretty much eating because of routine. (and plus i have to do insulin somehow) and im getting nauseous everytime after i eat. so idk. its.. strange. but it might just be im so homesick im getting sick literally?? idk. could be a stretch, but i doubt it.
this weekend i have a district conference. its going to be soo boring. (i think). Kristen is staying the night friday and saturday night :D im soo excited.
Nightmares the past three nights. im SO tired.
this whole exchange thing is handing me things i never thought id deal with. its different and unexpected. In good and bad ways.
Thanksgiving is next week :/
Christmas isnt going to be much better either. baahh. anyways.
Ill shut up.
Bisous

Easy?

This is going to be a long one.
Obama is the next president. I hate politics so im not going to go into it.
I am on break from school. I go back Monday. I went to Sweden. Long freaking drive. through france, belgium, germany, and denmark. took the ferry like twice. sleeping, dvds, and movies. thats what got me through the drive. Sweden was cold. and crisp and clean. And very beautiful. rocks and seasides. I miss it already. but im glad to be back in france.
Halloween was fun. Me and susanne carved pumpkins. On halloween night we had people over and had a whole like 4 course meal. Tacos and then french stuff. lol what a combo, huh?
Thanksgiving is next. I think im going to a rotarians house. his son is in my class also. and theyre American. so i hope it all goes well.
Im not looking forward to Christmas. Its going to be really hard. Im happy ill be in sweden and out of school and all that. But ill be homesick.
But, they say christmas is the hardest. and then the rest is just down hill, easy. I sure hope so.
You know that song, "if we can make it through december" lol? it keeps playing in my head. haha. laame i know.
Really random thoughts have been running through my head. Like for example, death. (wierd i know) but like, being away from my family is hard. And theyre alive. I dont know what i would ever do if i knew that they weren't alive. Like picturing yourself with the reaction. and facing each day without them. It scares the sh** out of me! but i guess thats enough about that. ill save it for my journal :)
Heres for all you girls--
Tonight i had a rotary meeting. And the guests were men from the UK, England. And a guy Peter sat with me at the dinner. And he and the rotarian sitting by me, Jean-Claude, were talking about their family. And their wife. and how long they had been married. So i asked Peter when and where and how he met his wife. Get this- -. He was walking down the street and saw a girl walking towards a dance studio. He asked her if she danced. She said yes. He asked her if she would like to go out dancing with him that night and she said she would have to ask her parents. She asked, and they said "have her home by 10pm". She was 14, he was 19. And theyve been together ever since. Can you believe that? just, walking down the street. complete strangers, go out dancing and then voila! some odd years and 2 kids later, theyre still married. Thats amazing.
I wish it could still be that easy. So simple. Everything is soo complicated these days.
and thats not the first love story ive heard like that.
Jean-Claude met his wife when she was 16 and he was 24. (big jump, i know) but that was a long time ago, so it may have not been strange. but theyre still happy together and everything. thats so cool.
And so easy! That would be amazazing.

Anyways.. my french is better. Im a little rusty right now. Being in sweden i didnt hear or speak french for a week and a half. School is the same. REALLY boring.
We have a Ukranian girl coming on Wednesday for 10 days. that should be fun.
My family back in the US got TWO BOXER PUPPIES.
Everything is going to be so different when i get home. And it doesnt help that i moved right before i came here. I couldnt even tell you what my livingroom looks like right now in the states. Or where the silverware drawer is. Its going to be bizarre. And with my sister not home and in college. And now those two Boxer dogs. Its going to be so wierd. Theyll have an entire life that i havent been apart of that i dont know anything about.
It kind of scares me.
I think im going to try to download church sermons or something. or try to find that Baptist church in Senlis that speaks english i think. idk. But i could use Him right now. i honestly dont remember the last time i prayed, except for today. Like, i think about God alot. But i dont pray or read my bible or go to church. Its wierd. But i brought my bible, and i think if i get some sermons online, ill get back on track. Maybe feel less lost? we'll see.
Sorry about that religion bit.
This was a random post.
When i figure out how to put up pictures, i definatly will. But i have Facebook.
Look me up :)
If you read all that, youre amazing. :)